A year ago yesterday I had my first appointment with an Eating Disorders Psychologist. The sessions went very well. I found out a lot about myself, changed the behaviour that took me there, and have lost about 2.5 stones (35lbs) since that time. The journey took me into the world of ‘clean eating’ or, as I call it, Eating with Integrity. And I’m proud of the progress I’ve made. My goal for 2017 is to lose another 2 stones (28lbs) without fasting.
Yesterday I had quite a major lapse. I decided to buy a tin of Roses as a thank you gift for someone I’ll see today. And I really didn’t think anything of it – barring the odd dessert eaten in company, I’ve been choosing not to eat that kind of ‘food’ for a long time. Anyway, I prefer Quality Street …
Well, the Roses are gone.
We all have our own reasons for over-eating – I was tired, dinner wasn’t satisfying, I was cold. Excuses 9 through 16.
Once upon a time, I’d have beaten myself up and probably not eaten for a couple of days to compensate. But that’s changed. I’ve learned I can’t keep a large amount of chocolate in the house overnight. Perhaps I never can. I’ve learned that I’m still vulnerable when I’m tired, hungry and cold. And, judging by the feel of my stomach, I’m reminded that I’d really rather eat healthily and feel well the next day.
I’m still proud of the progress I’ve made. And my goal is still to lose another 2 stones in 2017.